Tower B!

KFC Tower Burger


My grandmother went out to buy some groceries and snacks for my upcoming Rizal Course tour (Yes, I am a 4th year college student who will have a tour this coming Sunday to know more about Dr. Jose P. Rizal, I.am.proud.) and she bought me a KFC Tower Burger for lunch. It took me about 30 minutes to figure out how to eat this jumbo burger. I kid you not. Funny it was, I even tried to put a whole portion of the Tower Burger into my mouth. As I go on, I finally found the best way. I used the technique “The Squeeze”. Hahaha! Hella good.

My grandma told me to slice it so that I could eat it without any mess. I didn’t agree for the eating momentum was there, greatest feeling ever.

So, for everyone who will eat a KFC Tower Burger, use the ‘squeeze’ technique and I guarantee you… You will enjoy (a little bit messy, though) 🙂

The Schupid and The Solo

Sometimes you need to be.. what is it? Solo. You are always on stressful scenarios, feeding your thoughts with positive vibes, trying to think of ideas that could change your way of living, perhaps forever. This is, because you need to smash a business student life really hard, coz if not.. wait and see, it will hit you tremendously.

Good popping ideas for paper works, artworks and other hobbies (a must) are stupendous. 3 to 5 hours of sleep is fun, though. The bonus part, you will get the chance to hear the message clearly… from your professor… saying.. ‘schupid’, awesome! We all have our own way of saying things, uttering words and the like.

Yes, this post, ahmm, somehow or that’s it.. schupid.

Mid-September

September, the deadline month for me is doing good so far. 2 crucial weeks, I guess I’m winning. I don’t want to be complacent about what’s happening but I am really glad that September is smashing me with good things. On the other hand, I know there’s more to come and this is only the start of the greatest endeavors of the life.

A day seems to be a way longer than the usual when you don’t sleep and do nothing but to think and to reflect. My emotions weren’t stable, my mood wasn’t good and my outlook didn’t have the earmarks of being so strong and fearless. I was so down, I didn’t know what to do. All I wanted was an end to this, sleep more and put some happiness in me. I was looking for a place to reflect, for all I want is silence. I wanted to stay away from the noisy life and sleazy environment. Everything seems to be hybrid or high maintenance, and I don’t know how to react.

I went to the chapel, yes, the perfect place. I got the chance to cry and burst my thoughts. Drama, indeed, no seconds thoughts of me about crying this time. Stress was hitting me all throughout and I couldn’t bear it anymore, my body was reacting, my feelings were falling down and my whole being was trying its best to reach the boiling point of negativity. I realized all stuff in my life, even the positive ones. After that crying moment, I left the chapel peacefully. I felt the happiness coming back to me. All good.

Yesterday was my Global Marketing Plan presentation. I was so nervous. Then, the moment came. The last thing I know, it went really really well. Until now, I am still so happy, it feels like I can overcome everything. Vulnerable it is.

Happy Sunday.

Whatta Phase

Paper works, marketing terms, deadlines and expenses; my superb life for almost 4 years already. As I continue to grow and explore, the activities are getting challenging. I could feel my eyes are on the process of giving up and shutting down. My brain is now enervated. Thoughts are famishing. I’m trying to recover, trying to feel good about everything and convincing myself that I should not be paranoid about the activities on going.

I’m not complaining about the series of action-packed, slight boring and dull, not a movie-like life of mine as a student and as a human.. who aims to make a difference, be a superhero with majestic super powers to save the country from poverty, graft and corruption and many other forms of evilness of… whoever they are in the government. I was just stating the real life of a human being who is now brain drained, depressed and stressed.
Those who will find this post a little lame or grammatically incorrect, I’m quite sorry.

There’s no way out and no giving up for those people who really want to be successful and to be fulfilled. No easy life, no shortcuts, no magical codes. Go for broke and do all you can to achieve what you really want. No one can undermine you if you believe in yourself and to those things you can do. For almost 4 years of engaging with these activities, I could say I’m quite immune. The hard part is.. your brain, even if tired, wouldn’t stop thinking. Deadlines are approaching, faster than typhoons and fugitives. Caffeine replaces my blood. Information is giving up. Slow transition of being doesn’t fit the fast-paced life of a business student.

Everything boils down to one great solution. Sembreak.

Both Ways

(c) Shainne Lim

The fun of life could begin in exploring things alone and be adventurous about everything. The hanging question is.. Would you really do it alone?

Most of us think that life is funnier and happier when you have someone to share good times with.. relating to friends, family and many other relationships available. Yes, it’s true. Speaking for the contrary, most time there’s  limitations, restrictions, and talking about being ethical, you need to consider others too; that when you’re alone you can’t seem to find the rules and you just go with the flow.

Stereotype. Usual. Always. Why not change directions for some time? We need time to be alone, to think about life, to think about future and to at least reflect.

I do have a lot of good friends. Some of them are miles away from me and still make an effort to check if I’m okay (one of the reasons why I love internet so much). With that, I’m lucky. Soon, I’ll be leaving everyone, hoping that I could put a big smile and not cry before I fly away and be gone. Leaving literally, cliche it can be but.. They will always be a part of me. I could forget all the lectures we had in school yet friendship is one great thing I wouldn’t forget and will always treasure.

Being alone isn’t a big deal because I don’t get sad that often or that much. I always find ways to be happy through simple things. Being alone doesn’t mean that you’re lonely, well in fact, it is healthy. Sometimes.

I’m not engaging to the manner of spending all my time alone. I just want to be an expert about dealing on both ways. Indeed, it’s happier to have a company that you can share things with. The way that life would not always be in favor to you, you should invest to the other side as early as possible. It’s like being ready and prepared for the calamity, you do things earlier so that when the bad time comes, you are equipped and settled.

Random thoughts of September. Maybe I’m dealing with paper works so much and conscious about things I want to do. Leaving shouldn’t be an issue for I’m always sure I’ll be back. No matter what.

August, that fast?

The month of September is approaching, the start of the -ber months as they say. We may not notice that the year is about to end too, that fast. I’ve been mingling with stress for almost a whole year already and it sarcastically felt so good. My being couldn’t take the pressure of the fast-paced life anymore and I want to slow it down for the benefit of all. I salute those individuals who work under pressure and stress, therefore, I salute myself.

I want  September to be fantastic! I know that it’ll be a hell month for me because of midterm examinations and still, unbeatable, invincible and unyielding.. Paper works. After all of this, I hope that my life would change.. for the better. I want to be more productive (I’m working on that). 7 months more then I will be turning over my life to the next level, graduation is quite near, in line with the days that nailing the whole world so fast.

I should start thinking about the most serious side of life. Alter ego is pushing me real hard to consider things that should be tool into my mind, heart and soul. Maturity 2011.

September, let’s make things work.

Relationship?

My views regarding relationships and how it is like to be a nonbeliever base in the reality of life and not in a form of fairy tales and forever afters.

“You just have to commit to the idea that you don’t want to commit to a certain thing or person because it will just complicate and obscure things and perhaps ruin you.”

                                                                                                                      – Shainne Hostalero


For now, I don’t believe in a so called relationship but I do believe in love, it’s just I want to commit to something more different, something I really like and want to do and something I want to devote myself into, that for now, it’s not a relationship, it’s not a boy and girl thing, it’s more on activities, career, selfless undertakings, a thing that could help many individuals. Those might sound corny, jologs or whatever yet those are the things I want to do.

I don’t even need someone who will ruin stuff for me because I could ruin it all by myself. I could be happily in love but jumping to the next level of it, such as “labels”, “boyfriend-girlfriend”, “in a relationship” and more are not included (yet) in the list. A hater is different to a nonbeliever, self-explanatory.

There could be someone very special to me but I don’t want to demolish the “specialty” in a way of being uncertain or ambivalent with respect to “relationship”.  So many choices out there concerning with life and love, and yes. This is my choice.

On love:

Love is sacred, it doesn’t require playing and stupidity (that you can actually get from a relationship, the usual–I’m not bitter, just speaking for reality). It comes from the inner being with willingness and ability. A life full of true and unconditional love is good, it gets better everyday, it should be without complications, restrictions and worries.

Coffee Bean and the past Sunday

Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf moment (with my friend, Manilyn)

Last Sunday, Manilyn and I went to TriNoma (as usual) to have some relaxation and coffee; supposedly in Starbucks but there’s no space available for us in all Starbucks Coffee in Tri. We went to Seattle’s Best, still crowded, no available chairs and tables. Then, we decided to go to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, luckily, we had the chance to sit in a couch. We ordered White Chocolate Dream (Ice Blended), a muffin and an ensaymada and still missing Starbucks Frappuccino *sigh* then the story began, a lot of catching up happened, stories, theories, anything under the sun.
The Realization:
The world is lovely especially to the relationship ~nonbeliever~ *ehem*, you know there’s something wrong with you when everybody is so cheesy yet you can’t feel and do anything but to crave for more ice blend and frappucino. 
To clarify, you’re enjoying the scene of cheesiness but not reacting positively nor showing bitterness.
Everyone, I’m not bitter, just a relationship nonbeliever but still a love propagator. Whatup.

How could you?

A year of playing, a year of somewhat senseless stuff, you and me.. me and you but there’s no us. Your life, my life, doesn’t have any correlation at all. All play.

Getting down to being serious about this matter, this human being who is not a relationship believer, commitment hater and tends to stereotype most of the time is now thinking about her life, about her life with you in it and if this game is tooling the universe for you both. She can’t tell you why, you wouldn’t understand anyway, the same as she couldn’t get it too. In forefront of all the negative and positive in her life right now.. she’s confused. She wanted a new beginning but she’s having a hard time to decide about it without considering you dealing with the life she’s projecting about.

One year has passed… feels like it all happened just yesterday. She needed you but you weren’t there to help her, to simply be with her; she thought that this is a good life, vibrant and vivid but yet it’s so hard to prove. What will happen to her if you’re gone for good? Well, no doubt, she could do it all alone, she’s strong, you won’t notice her weaknesses and if she really have any. On the other hand, she wants you to consider her feelings.

Everything for your own convenience, for your happiness, for your demands, for you, just for you. Everything for you. How could you be so passive? How could you be so unappreciative? How could you be so heartless? How could you?

How could you?

The "I don’t fear the end of human kind feeling"..actually on going.

This is such an aberrant innervation that myself is processing, feels like I’m emotionally unstable and I can’t wait to screw hard those hindrances and tell the world, “I survived! Hell? In yo’ face!”

All predicaments seem to have aftertastes; all of those are simply not ideal and I’m letting myself not to be so exemplary for every human being in this world, the point of realizing that all of these ideas are useless, senseless and weird is fast approaching.

Moreover, I’m expecting that all of the things in my mind are just those simple stuff that I can use for future reference and not to wind (verb) me hard at this very moment. If I will disappear and hell yeah, if the human kind will end later, I am not scared… for at least I am not the only one who will be out of life in this earth. I don’t like this kind of feeling. I’m dying (exaggeration and a half)