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Coffee Bean and the past Sunday

Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf moment (with my friend, Manilyn)

Last Sunday, Manilyn and I went to TriNoma (as usual) to have some relaxation and coffee; supposedly in Starbucks but there’s no space available for us in all Starbucks Coffee in Tri. We went to Seattle’s Best, still crowded, no available chairs and tables. Then, we decided to go to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, luckily, we had the chance to sit in a couch. We ordered White Chocolate Dream (Ice Blended), a muffin and an ensaymada and still missing Starbucks Frappuccino *sigh* then the story began, a lot of catching up happened, stories, theories, anything under the sun.

The Realization:

The world is lovely especially to the relationship ~nonbeliever~ *ehem*, you know there’s something wrong with you when everybody is so cheesy yet you can’t feel and do anything but to crave for more ice blend and frappucino.

To clarify, you’re enjoying the scene of cheesiness but not reacting positively nor showing bitterness.

Everyone, I’m not bitter, just a relationship nonbeliever but still a love propagator. Whatup.

How could you?

A year of playing, a year of somewhat senseless stuff, you and me.. me and you but there’s no us. Your life, my life, doesn’t have any correlation at all. All play.

Getting down to being serious about this matter, this human being who is not a relationship believer, commitment hater and tends to stereotype most of the time is now thinking about her life, about her life with you in it and if this game is tooling the universe for you both. She can’t tell you why, you wouldn’t understand anyway, the same as she couldn’t get it too. In forefront of all the negative and positive in her life right now.. she’s confused. She wanted a new beginning but she’s having a hard time to decide about it without considering you dealing with the life she’s projecting about.

One year has passed… feels like it all happened just yesterday. She needed you but you weren’t there to help her, to simply be with her; she thought that this is a good life, vibrant and vivid but yet it’s so hard to prove. What will happen to her if you’re gone for good? Well, no doubt, she could do it all alone, she’s strong, you won’t notice her weaknesses and if she really have any. On the other hand, she wants you to consider her feelings.

Everything for your own convenience, for your happiness, for your demands, for you, just for you. Everything for you. How could you be so passive? How could you be so unappreciative? How could you be so heartless? How could you?

How could you?

The "I don’t fear the end of human kind feeling"..actually on going.

This is such an aberrant innervation that myself is processing, feels like I’m emotionally unstable and I can’t wait to screw hard those hindrances and tell the world, “I survived! Hell? In yo’ face!”

All predicaments seem to have aftertastes; all of those are simply not ideal and I’m letting myself not to be so exemplary for every human being in this world, the point of realizing that all of these ideas are useless, senseless and weird is fast approaching.

Moreover, I’m expecting that all of the things in my mind are just those simple stuff that I can use for future reference and not to wind (verb) me hard at this very moment. If I will disappear and hell yeah, if the human kind will end later, I am not scared… for at least I am not the only one who will be out of life in this earth. I don’t like this kind of feeling. I’m dying (exaggeration and a half)

Sherlock Holmes 2: A Game of Shadows (2011)

SHERLOCK HOLMES 2: A GAME OF SHADOWS (2011)

For those who are fan of Sherlock Holmes (just like me), here’s the sequel of the 2009 film Sherlock Holmes that will be on movie houses on December of this year. More action, twists, and mysteries upcoming. Robert Downey Jr. (Sherlock Holmes) and Jude Law (Dr. John Watson) recapitulate their roles as duo, join forces to circumvent and bring down their most devious foe, Professor Moriarty.

Movie: Friends With Benefits (2011)

Friends With Benefits (2011)

The perfect movie to have a break from the cliches of Hollywood romantic comedies, adding up a real extravagant spice to this film makes the day go for the perfect sunshine. And if you are going to ask me “How much do you love Justin Timberlake?”.. Well, I don’t have any idea at all, I just so love him and the hotness of Mila Kunis is just… damn, wow.

A must-see!

(Movie Trailer courtesy of Youtube and you’re right! This blog is for ‘anything goes’ thoughts of mine)

🙂

SONA 2011

The second State of the Nation Address (SONA) of President Benigno “NoyNoy” Aquino III was expected to be illogical, to have too little or none of substance and just a replay of the previous SONA he did, but at some point, it was really a contrary of those expectations, it rotated a total 360 degrees from the prior. Although people are bearing bellicose as a part of being, not having much of understanding about the government that was actually (according to the SONA) trying its best to become better, a higher quality than the average and to prove that this country can gain the most positive marks and points when it comes to progress.

People, being belligerent and entails negative points and opinions that exaggeratedly want to condemn the current administration; not much of a good point that the current provision is getting. I’m sure they are working on that with all the transparency that they can do and with all the information that they have given the people for the past year up to present. I think, it’s time that we should listen, think, understand and reflect on what the president is trying to tell us.

This is not me being Pro-NoyNoy or so, but this is me, in favor of the progress that everybody’s talking about and dreaming of. For me, the improvement of this country should not just be on the hands of our president but also in ours. Changes, Improvements and all positive substances may vary also into the things we are looking for, considering preferences, interests, ideas, comments, and opinions and what should be done to accomplish those. Others are being radical and agitates dearly, having shallow understanding and the most prominent.. being judgmental, thinking that we all need to work hard to achieve what we want, to pursue what we need to pursue and to be meritorious in all endeavors we are about to face. These are the requirements for us to have a better country and for us to be a better person; work out on how to be a pacifist, in a way that we can be able to do what’s right, in a way of not being exaggerated about sympathy or understanding thus cruel some and over acting manner on those aren’t the best way to persist.

Take note that our president isn’t a magician, it’s not easy to be on the position with all those massive responsibilities; let us bear with him for the rest of his term or for the next State of the Nation Address, it’s too early to tell what would be the outcome of all of his projects. Don’t leave all the work to our president, we need to do our part to help him overcome the obstacles our country is currently facing, for lately we are being to judgmental about stuff.

The End of 2011’s Week 28

The Sunday is quite good, hot and full of fun things, except that I’m thinking all of works that should be done, thinking also about a workless weekend I haven’t experienced for a long time already. There’s nothing really important about this state of words, perhaps, I just want to type, feel my brain if it’s still functioning (i hope so) and to spend a little meditation for a good back up of things.. on going.

On going…. hmm. Best moments?

Best moments for me are those moments when I get the chance to bond with good friends, watch documentaries, read books and newspapers, stroll around the mall, pig-out and those internet related activities, so life as simple as I think it is. That for those moments I think were the best, other people could find it boring, nerd-like, corny, and whatever negative adjectives they want to associate with those. Who cares about me being nerd-like or boring? It makes me glad, fly and comfortable, so what?! I should get by that people were born judgmental and their comments and reactions should be taken into consideration even if you don’t fudging like it or not in favor of it.

Another thing, being so radical is somewhat my being is trying to avoid ~~or to lessen~~ so that I could refuse dealing on the paranoid side, being paranoid is not healthy, really. What is there is there, but on the other hand, I’m thinking we all need it… radical, cling with roots and origins, yes? I’m like that for some time. Okay, so I’m confusing, doing a lot of thinking ’til this Sunday could be fun compare to this blog post; I want to make sure that I will be productive to finish all works of mine and to meet all the deadlines even if bad thoughts are running through my brain and this blog is just my excuse to fill my day with gladness. Maybe I just need more sleep.

“Blogging is like crying, you can let your emotions out without your eyes getting sore, if you know what I mean.” – Lim, Shainne (2011)

Pledge on the Sublime

Digged the news this morning, and I was highly affected of the innovations regarding illegal stuff. Would you believe that there’s a “Shabu-spread” already? I don’t have any idea why people do such a thing, what do they get from those kind of drugs? Aren’t they scared? This “Shabu-spread” is pretty wow, it uses bread for drug transactions, whatta highly innovative fuckery idea huh?! But why not use those splendorous ideas for something better? (Yes, running compassion)

Living in the third world is fun, you may want to strive harder, be educated, learn things in life, and many other ways to improve your being, nature, government and so on; but on the other aspect of it, it is hard (self-explanatory), and this kind of news makes me sick. People, we want to be successful and our country wants to be rich, well-rounded and all positive dealings and so, right? But what are we doing now? We should do good instead and pledge on the sublime.

Well, this thought is not much innovative compare to theirs. Not really being a hero or whatever here, but this stuff is like a bell ringing, deafening our ears telling us “notice me, notice me, change for the better”.

Oh well, enough for this day, stop the negativity.

Recyclable Feelings

The sky is the door to your soul
When I look at it, I could feel you so
Sad it may seem, it’s so hard to dream
Even if you let me in, I will never win

Weeping each night in a dark gray place
My heart is drifting wanting to race
The thoughts of you always make me smile
I’m trying to forget my problems even a little while

I know we are worlds apart
Reaching for you and wanting you is like an art
All memories with laughter and tears
Hitting me hard, full of fears

The sky is the door to your soul
When I look at it, I could feel you so
Writing these words for you to feel the love
Even if it takes me bewildered high above

Wanting you is the greatest entity
I’m loving you with great sincerity
I know you really don’t want to take me
I will not sob nor beg you to be with me

This love could reach the end so soon
But I will be thankful for having you ’til noon
May the world be good to you and me
And may we ran out of bad words to utter, to see

Thank you for the time that you actually allotted
Thank you for those fake I love you’s, I was fascinated
Thank you for teaching me how to be stronger
Thank you for faking your appreciation and imposing clatter

I may not be perfect, I may not be right
I may not be beautiful, I may not be bright
But at least I can love dearly, sincerely, oh true
My love for you is endless, but I know right now it’s through

Week 26 of 2011

Sundays are fun! I’m longing for some relaxation though it’s a fun week for me after all, but what’s new? It’s too tiring 😦 We are now preparing for the STRATMARK (Strategic Marketing) Competition, and it feels so awesomeamazing to be one of those individuals who will represent FEU for the said competition, wowowowowowowowow!! Imagine that more than 30 universities are joining the competition, I am very fortunate, a ‘hell yeah’ opportunity! Yes! It’s the highlight of my fun week, actually.

A sort of jeopardy feeling or am I just being paranoid? I’m telling my grandma that I need some rest and she told me that I should pursue it because I always go home late and tired (because of my ’til 9pm class. ~sad~) Anyhoo, it’s okay, I’m still fine and I’m still happy, I can’t wait for July 5 or July 6, so I am excited for my new savings account, the bank personnel told me that they will activate it on the said dates and by that time I can already deposit my money, my new ATM card is a Debit card too, I am soooo glad!! No, I should not think of the things that I want to buy, no no no, I should save money!

I promise myself that I will be rich someday. I will start saving now but maybe I can be a real rich human being after my feasibility study, after all the school requirements and projects, true, the expenses are screwing me up.